Hi gang,

Forgive me if this rambles on, but I just recently got devastating news, and my heart is breaking.  First, it's not about my cancer....I've been off the chemo for about 3 months now, and I'm loving it!  I have no idea if it's "asleep" still, but I'm sure I'll find out in the next few weeks.  I'm so used to it being asleep on one scan, then back awake on the next, it's not even funny.  A week ago, I got an email from my aunt, back in my home state of Iowa.  My dad had been admitted to the hospital.  He was having terrible headaches and was fogetting words, when he would try to have a conversation.  They did an MRI, and found a tumor in his brain.  They were able to do a biopsy on Monday, but couldn't remove the tumor.  On Wednesday, we got the pathology report.....he has Glioblastoma Multiforme, GBM for short.  This is such an agressive tumor, that they basically told my dad that there is no hope for him.  They will treat him agressively with 35 doses of radiation, but the best they can hope for is a year, maybe a little more.  I can deal with fighting my own cancer.....this news I was not prepared to hear....Our whole family is in shock.  I try to be strong and positive, when I talk with him on the phone, but I honestly am a complete basket case right now....I have cried more in the past week, than I have in the past 10 years.   I honestly always thought that I would go before him.......my fathers side of the family has always lived way into their 90's and I figured that he would also.   This has been such an awful week, I'd love to just run and hide and forget it all..  I'm so lucky that I have such an amazing support system, with all my friends I have made thru the relay for life, and an incredible ACS staff partner!    My son will graduate from HS next year and I would love for his grandfather to be able to see this.   Please keep him in your thoughts prayers, for the miracle we so despartely need..........

Health and Happines to all....