The Emptiness
Current mood: depressed
The emptiness is my life. I have had so many changes
in my life this last month that have made me a
different person. Not the person that most people
know and see, not happy, friendly or outgoing. None of
the above. On the inside I am hurting, depressed,
lonely and very sad. If you see me you may not even
realize that something is wrong, I can fake smile very
well, the actress in me I suppose. For the most part
this all started when my grandma became very sick. My
grandma is so special to me, more like a mother and of
course a close friend. She has been fighting lung
cancer since diagnosed in January 2006. I took her to
most of her chemo appts. and all her CT scans for the
last year. The chemo did not work so we stopped
treatments Feb. of this year. I got a call from my
mother 2 weeks ago that my grandma was being
transported to the ER, which was a red flag because